Lost in tomorrow

I think we are always in such a rush to do things. Especially when we’re passionate about them. This can be such a beautiful thing but also a harmful one. I think sometimes there are certain things we can only do at certain times in our life, and then there are other things we can do at any point in our life.

It’s important to focus on the things we can only do at certain times because life flashes before us at the speed of light, and the last thing any of us want to die with is regrets, regrets of parts of our lives not lived.

There's so much pressure by society to do everything at a certain time and pursue everything at a certain age. But that's not how life works. Things happen, we change our minds maybe once or twice or a million times, roadblocks appear, and sometimes our goals can be a little harder to reach and we must dig up a new path. That's okay. You're still on track.

I have had so much reflection these last few months. Things have come into my focus that I wasn’t even thinking of before. The path I was so sure of and was darting towards suddenly seems wonky. Suddenly, all the procrastination and the “I’ll get to it later”s have built up into a massive pile of “this is not for you right now.”

Maybe I didn’t feel the passion to achieve it right now like how I feel the passion to experience it in this life because it’s not meant for me right now. Maybe everything I thought was right was actually wrong.

I’ve thought so much about how I’m wasting my youth. How badly I wanted to grow up and how much I just want to be a kid right now having already tasted the fruits of adulthood.

In the grand scheme of life, I am just a kid. I am a wide eyed, freshly new spirit in this world, with a whole lot of lives to live and places to live and people and moments and music and movies and food and laughs and cries to experience. I have my ENTIRE life ahead of me.

Whats the rush?

Why did I feel so much pressure to pursue one of my lifelong dreams right now. Maybe it’s because I knew I’ve wanted it from such a young age and now that I can pursue it I feel that I must.

But I don’t have to right now.

Deep down, I know that when I finally pursue this dream, I will no longer be able to pursue the others that I’m dreaming of right now.

Things won’t be the same. They’ll be different. I’ll be older. I won’t get to experience the youthfulness that these dreams I have right now pertain to and offer.

So, my dear reader, take these days with pace. Pursue things while youre still able to. Life will always be with us as long as we let it. Being old only fully settles in when you start to adopt the mentality that you are old. Our spirit is not bound by time, and though our body may not be able to do the things we used to when we were young, we are still more than able to continue living and not surrender to the powers of death. What’s meant for you will always be, and just because it isn’t meant for you right now doesn’t mean it won’t ever be. Let’s all take a moment. Let’s all be here now.

Love, Sarah